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Valentine's Day?

Today is 14th of January, Valentine's Day. But guess what I got for Valentine's day? Results that look like a piece of shit. Maybe to others, they'll think that 3.2 is considered not bad already, but it isn't for me. From 3.8 dropped to 3.2, I know how much I've made my family disappointed.

I know it's my fault, for looking down on the enemy. I'm sorry. IF I could turn back time, I swear to God that I won't procrastinate anymore. But too bad, I couldn't turn back time. I must thank God that I have the most understanding mom on Earth. She didn't scold me after knowing my results. I know she's disappointed, I'm sorry. I think the reason that she didn't scold me is because I cried hard, really hard, like sobbing.

And now, my mom has to pay for my studies because of my fucking bad results. People would ask, "How about your father? Why isn't he paying?" Yeah, there's something wrong with my father I would say. He's stingy as fuck. I remember there was once, he asked me about my friend (Ah Qan). I said that she's currently studying at SMI for form 6. Then he asked me if it's hard. I said that she said it's hard. But he didn't trust me. Guess what he said? He said "I'll never trust girls, because every time they said it's hard but end up they'll get good results." I laughed and replied sacarsticly "What do you expect when Sem2 syllabus came out in Sem1 exam?" After that he said "Then she must have a rich father that's willing to pay for her studies if she didn't do well in her exam." I laughed harder and said "Her father isn't rich, but is generous and willing to pay for her daughter's studies, UNLIKE YOU." And here's the epic part, he said "It's not that I'm not willing to pay for your studies, but because you aren't obedient enough to follow my instructions. I told you to take science." And I was pissed, like really pissed. Because it's my future isn't it? Why is he interfering it? I know why he wanted me to take engineering, because he wants to have "FACE". Isn't it proud when you tell your relatives that your daughter is studying engineering? Yeah it is.

I want to tell all my feelings to my buddies and best friends, but I realised that I seriously do not have many friends around me. I agree with one quote:

我的脾气赶走了很多人
却留下了最真的人

I'm sorry, I know, I wasn't born to be a princess, so I shouldn't have princess attitude. I'll change. I promise, I'll try my best to change.

I'm a greedy person. Although you're just my best friend, but I get jealous when you told me that you like her. Please don't ask me to explain, because even I myself don't know what I'm talking about. LOL.

If you really love her, then go for her. I don't want to talk bad about anyone already. Too tired for that shit. Moreover, 君子绝交不出恶声. Have to try to be a more civilised person. HAHA.

❤ "Valentine's Day?" was Posted On: Thursday, January 14 @6:25 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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