Life?
And so, here I come again. Finally I told my third bro, my dearest bro, about the relationship. He seems mad, sort of. But it seems like I'm the one who get blamed.I thought he said he dislikes to hear the news from others, so I asked Kevin not to tell him, because I don't want to disappoint him again. The tone he used to talk to me when he found out that I was in a relationship, is still in my mind. He said "It's hurtful not because you're in a relationship, but because I got the news not from you but from the others." So this time, I decided to tell him myself.
But it seems like it's my fault again, to hide it from my brother. Now I wonder, is it I'm not allowed to get into any relationship in my life? Everyone seems to put the blame at me. Am I doing the wrong thing, again? He kept telling my niece "dear, you must stay with me, everyone left me, I only have you." and "the first word I will teach you, is the word 'family'. Don't ever forget about your family." Maybe he's saying it kiddingly, but it hurts me, a lot. Gor, I'm not leaving you alright? Just because I have a boyfriend that doesn't mean that I'll leave you. I'm sorry that I disappoint you, again.
He used the word "entertain". He said "no mood to ENTERTAIN you, find me on Wednesday." Wow. So you're actually entertaining me all this while. So torturous to talk to me? Well, fine then. I think I'll lock up myself. Sorry that I'm like this. I always run away from reality when I face problems. Now I need to rethink everything, is it really gonna work that I continue.
你若不离 我定不弃…… 那如果是我先想放弃呢？
Him ❤️
This is a post dedicated to him, my love, David Chia Tai Wei. Well, I have to say that, I wonder what has he done to me, to make me get addicted to him. Oops.He got me an advanced birthday present yo. I really love it. Thank you babe, really.
Bought from ZALORA.
He's so excited. Actually I'm more excited HAHAHAH.
Casio pink ;) He bought this colour because I love pastel colours.
Thank you babe.
Tbh, I always wonder, do I actually treat him as a replacement. The better he treats me, the guiltier I am. That's why I used to pushed him away when he wanted to hug me or kiss me at first. However, I changed. The day when I realised that his smile and his tears, can actually trigger my emotion of the day.
Look at his smile. So nice that it warms my heart.
He always think that he's not good enough for me, but baby, you're there for me, you trust me, you guide me, you lead me. I can never tell how much I need you in my life. You always think that kampar girls are materialistic, but I'm not babe. I don't mind that you don't have a car, I don't mind to walk with you. As long as I'm with you, I'm okay.
But babe, have I ever told you that I'm actually lack of security? I'm always scared, I also Dk scared of what tbh -.- Maybe I'm just lack of some self-confidence. Babe, I promise you, that I will protect this relationship. Because I love you.
Name: Stephie / Stephanie
I don't remember when I created this blog,what I know it's been a long time ago. If I'm not mistaken, it's 2009 right? But this blog has been accompanied me whenever I'm SAD HAPPY LONELY FRUSTRATED
Travel to Japan 