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 Life?
And so, here I come again. Finally I told my third bro, my dearest bro, about the relationship. He seems mad, sort of. But it seems like I'm the one who get blamed.

I thought he said he dislikes to hear the news from others, so I asked Kevin not to tell him, because I don't want to disappoint him again. The tone he used to talk to me when he found out that I was in a relationship, is still in my mind. He said "It's hurtful not because you're in a relationship, but because I got the news not from you but from the others." So this time, I decided to tell him myself.

But it seems like it's my fault again, to hide it from my brother. Now I wonder, is it I'm not allowed to get into any relationship in my life? Everyone seems to put the blame at me. Am I doing the wrong thing, again? He kept telling my niece "dear, you must stay with me, everyone left me, I only have you." and "the first word I will teach you, is the word 'family'. Don't ever forget about your family." Maybe he's saying it kiddingly, but it hurts me, a lot. Gor, I'm not leaving you alright? Just because I have a boyfriend that doesn't mean that I'll leave you. I'm sorry that I disappoint you, again.

He used the word "entertain". He said "no mood to ENTERTAIN you, find me on Wednesday." Wow. So you're actually entertaining me all this while. So torturous to talk to me? Well, fine then. I think I'll lock up myself. Sorry that I'm like this. I always run away from reality when I face problems. Now I need to rethink everything, is it really gonna work that I continue.

你若不离 我定不弃…… 那如果是我先想放弃呢？
❤ "Life?" was Posted On: Monday, September 21 @12:21 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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