yesterday.
yesterday bsmm retake exam.ahaha.
i know.
i will fail.
never mind.
stay at senior ma,
i can de.
but i won't be active anymore.
cause i don't wanna face this year form1s
they're so annoying.
grrr...
after bsmm retake exam,
i went to parade with my darling and toh jinwey
:)
haha.
they planned to go back at 12.30pm
so i called my daddy to fetch me at 12.30,
but he heard wrong,
he heard 11.30,
so waited for one hour long.
when i get into d car,
he slapped me.
==
what's wrong with you now huh?
suddenly slapped me...
kay!
don't talk about things that are not happy!
let's talked about yesterday hang out!:))
darynn and I planned to buy purse.
we went to alot of shops and choose,
we choose some quite nice one,
but all also only have one only,
don't have more.
urghh.
cause darynn and I planned to buy same purse.
and d plan is FAIL.
urghh.
never mind.
we bought d purse also white in color,
and also very nice de.
dunno why,
i like darynn's purse more.
hahaha.
never mind la,
that time i asked her to choose which one she want one,
then i choose another.
she choose the nicer one,
so i choose this one lorh.
body glove de.
but just rm10.
hahahah.
is fake one.
saw a bag,
damn nice,
rm30.
actually that time i enough money to buy it geh,
but,
scare later mommy scold me er.
but i already told my mum that i will buy a present for my birthday,
i will pay myself,
don't worry kay?
haha.
i think im gonna buy that bag.
really nice.
i love it.
i want buy it!!!
yeah.
i will buy it.
one day.
SOON.
man man wait la me~
hahahah.
less than one month.
then is my birthday.
im waiting for it.
i want present!
hahaha.
joking only la.
i wan you all wish me then enough.
:P
ILOVEMYFRIENDS~
明天的幸福
也许我没拿到满分
爱不算是完美的人
所以我比谁都认真
努力赶上 你的标准
爱你就是我的责任
我跟昨天 的我竞争
要用笑容取代泪痕
看你难过 我会心疼~
故事还没有结束
让我再把你楼主
别忘了预约
明天的幸福
走过的每个脚步
都值得欢欣鼓舞
能为你吃苦不觉得苦
手心有你的温度
冷酷就可以挡住
我为你约好
明天的幸福
在人海起起伏伏
爱是唯一的地图
要陪你看见每个日出
:))
today dunno why suddenly gastric.sweat larh.
i think is because recess that time busy decorating, so not enough time to eat.
urgh.
how can suddenly gastric one?
==
and d kerja kayu,
teacher say if can accept also can get "B" only,
can't get A wor.
aiya
who cares lar?
B then B la.
i don't care.
and i don't wanna care anymore.
you die.
is your business.
i don't wanna care about you.
go die.
and me,
will continue live happily.
:))
:]
today is monday.yeah.
it's monday.
actually that time morning don't feel like wanna go school,
but at last i also went.
cause i go no reason to tell mummy that i don't wanna go school.
don't tell me you want me to tell my mummy that i don't want to go school because i don't want to get result huh?
impossible right?
yeah.
it's impossible.
impossible my mum will let me skip school for no reason.
i know my mum well.
haha.
LOL.
talk back about today.
today my dear(jOce)bring home-made sushi wor~
urgh.
i want on diet but can't
THANKS TO HER.
haha.
actually should blame myself also,
cause is i want to eat de.
haha.
urghhh...
TUNA somemore.
fat lo
fat lo
urghh.
nevermind lar.
do more sit up lo.
haha.
teacher gave out some papers today.
erm.
get bad results.
as usual lar.
get used to it.
cause i didn't study also.
oh yeah.
come back and get scolded by brother.
i already predict this will happen.
nevermind.
cause i deserve the scold.
but
my brother said that he will force me study.
he want me to get top 10 in the end year test.
impossible lar.
im not that smart kay?
last time i am,
but now i'm not.
yeah.
im just a stupid person who always being cheated by people.
i admit that lar:)
oh yeah.
my results:
geo-83 (my brother wants me to get 90++)
perdagangan-85 (last time i get 90+ de)
bm-80 (huuuu, ngam ngam hou got A)><
bi-78 (EAT SHIT, many people get A+, i know my english is SUCKS)
science-88 (priscilla even get 100, how useless i could be?)
urgh.
im just useless.
i know that.
but i think i will start study from now.
i want get top10,
i cant make my family, especially my brother disappointed.
sorry that i've make you all disappointed this time.
im so sorry.
im gonna work harder.
i think im not gonna update for few days.
since that is nothing to update also.
buhbye blog.
see you few days after:)
IMY~
muacksss~
:D
I A M S U C K S~:)
happy birthday daddy~ ♥
happy 53th birthday daddy~ ♥yeah.
daddy's birthday today.
wake me up at 6 something in the morning just wanna me to wish him.
what larh?
my daddy is so BABYY~ ♥
hahaha:)
then i just simply say:
"en lar en lar, 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' kay?"
then he merajuk jor.
he said:
"how can you like 'fuhin' me like that? say again, say properly."
then i replied:
"my beloved daddy arh, now im still sleeping gar, wait lar, later after i brush my teeth only i wish you larh kay?"
then my daddy said:
"cannot"
then i straight away sleep back, dun wan bother him~
:P
i naughty leh~:P
haha:)
daddy~
is i very tired arh,
not i wan to simply fuhin you~
sorry arh~
I L O V E Y O U D A D D Y ~ ♥
my feeling is SUCK~
At lastfinally
my test is FINISH.
YEAH.
it's finish.
and finally i got
FREEDOM.
haha.
i just screamed after d exam.
very loud.
urghhhh.
is it i too stress?
aiya
i don't even study
how i would be stress huh?
LOL
my mummy and bro were keep on scolding me because i didn't study.
so what if i didn't study?
yeah i know,
because i will get bad result if i didn't study.
but
i also told you right?
this time i get bad results
then next time exam only i will work harder
only i will get good results.
i know
it's very hard to believe this FACT,
but it is really my FACT
trust me kay?
i will WORK HARDER next time kay?
yeah.
im STUPID.
im USELESS.
i know that
kay?!
i will never leave when you need me most~:)
so, tell me when you need me~:)
Sweet Memories~
LOL~today holiday~
suppose to be happy because is a holiday for today.
but,
tomorrow still got exam~ T^T
urghhh...
this exam
i dun even study a single thing,
so i MIGHT FAIL this time~
i aint clever,
im just stupid.
stop saying me is clever cause im just stupid.
yesterday maths exam
d first time...
i not enough time to do,
d first time...
i dunno how to do,
im just USELESS.
and i know,
i will get a B for my maths.
NO~:(
my family all is expert in maths,
just me...
i damn USELESS
a kerja kayu also need bro's to help me do~
LOL
what for im living in this world lar?
im just USELESS only wad...
YEAH~
IM USELESS AND STUPID~
i admit that~:)
aiyarh,
don't talk about this lerh~:)
today morning,
daddy ask me go out for breakfast,
i rejected him.
and when mummy ask me go out for breakfast,
i straight away accept and change to go out.
hahahah.
then daddy merajuk jor...
he say:
"UNFAIR~ mummy ask you go then you go, i ask you go then you don't go. i know lar, u love mummy more than me mar.:("
then as usual,
i will comfort him back.
to me,
daddy is a BIG BABY~
but i know,
he very sek me~
:D
all my family treat me like princess,
i know,
cause im d only girl in this family.
so they will give me all their LOVE~
ILOVETHEMTOO~
today,
went to buy shirts.
yeah.
bro choose alott of shirts for testing.
when my dad saw,
his eyes almost come out~
hahahaha...
he say he not enough money to pay wor~:D
and i buy jor a pink polo shirt.
quite nice har geh~:D
actually i wan buy light purple gar,
but mummy say pink suit me more, sweet ditt wor~
LOL
im tomboy lei geh mar,
is you say de
and now u say pink sweet dit
suen lar.
sweet jau sweet lar.
yeah.
im SWEET~
phewwitttt~
hahahha...
*perasan
:))
ILOVEMYFAMILY~
THEYJUSTGIVEMEALLTHEIRLOVE~
IAPPRECIATEIT~
NO TITLE~
hello:)LOL~
cheesin jor~
:D
hahaha...
exam
exam
exam
now all inside my brain is
EXAM~
urghhh
but my brain is BLANK
what i learned before also all forget
yeah.
cause i'm stupid.
i admit that.
i'm stupid in everything.
i know.
i stupid.
always being cheated.
and i just laugh when i being cheated.
no one knows
that i actually don't want to smile.
no one knows
that i actually wanna hug them and cry badly.
no one knows
my feeling well.
yeah.
i know
i can leave without all of you.
i just need myself.
i just need myself to live in my own WORLD.
a world that have me ONLY.
no other people~:)
yeah.
but i know
i cant live without my blog.
i need to express my feeling.
i always write my feeling on a paper and i throw it.
cause i don't want people to know my feeling.
i just want to be ALONE~:)
"I AM THE IN CHARGE OF MY WORLD
AND YOU, CANNOT CONTROL MY LIFE~:)"
我和哥哥
我和我的哥哥呀走在大街上
好像情侣那样
他搭着我的肩膀
我搂着他的腰
还记得去年
我在jaya jusco遇到saras
她看见我和哥哥走在一起
过后就马上信息问我
“那是你男朋友啊？”
我没回她
结果第二天在学校
我只是对了他笑一笑
他就真的以为那是我的男朋友呃~
哈哈哈哈
嗳哟
但是
我还是跟她解释了
那只是我的哥哥啦
不要误会……
:D
今天在茶餐室时
我去看要吃些什么
结果
我就拉着哥哥的手慢慢的经过每一个档口
哈哈哈
真的真的好像情侣~
><
我没有男朋友啦~
我是单身
单身快乐~
：D
待会儿
就是红星约会enrolment test的成绩公布
唉~
我
一定不及格的~
没办法
我不会~
尤其是oral那部分
没几题是会答的~
全部我都讲
"forget/don't know"
corporal loh jun mann 看到我这样
都一直摇头
我不会答
结果
我一从那间课室出来
就哭了
全部都看着我~
呃~
丑爆了！
所以我很快就停止哭泣~
我知道
我可能
拿零鸡蛋~
哎呀
不要想这样多
等下就会知道成绩了~
而这个成绩
也已成事实
所以
不要想这样多
我的哥哥
很疼我
很爱我
我也很爱他们
哥哥
我爱你~
有位傻傻的男孩~
有个男孩喜欢我
我有那么的优秀么？
不
我一点也不优秀
他喜欢我什么？
我只会一次又一次的伤他的心
为什么？
他要一直等待？
为什么？
他要这么主动？
难道……
他不知道主动的人就是会被伤到的么？
我只是一个非常非常非常普通的女孩
也许不是
也许我是个TB.
我对他
不知道为什么
没有那种感觉
就算有
我也不会接受他的
因为
我答应过哥哥我不会谈恋爱
我会好好保护自己
然而
他的一举一动
常常然我感到很感动
就好像
我问他：
“why you wan me to be your gf? i wan 10 reasons”
他却回答：
“1.i love the way you make me feel when i am with you
2.i love how you you make me smile
3.i love the way your voice sounds over the phone
4.i love you just the way you are
5.i love how i would do anything to make you happy
6.i love you even when you're not with me still feel like you're right here with me
7.i love that i am always there for you
8.i love the way that if we're seperated i would'nt know how to go on
9.i love you so much that i cannot lose you
10.and remember 2months ago i dared u to be my gf??
say yes la my brain hurts when thinking all of this stuff~~”
我又问他：
“why must i accept you? give me 20 reasons.”
他又会回答：
“1. i love her so dearly more than anything.
2. She is my best friend, my alter ego
3. She is the one I dreamed of every night and think about each day.
4. She is truly a gift from God.
5. She has shown me my true self.
6. She is CUTE!!
7. i live everyday as if it is her last on earth to the fullest.
8. She has a very 'forgiving heart'.
9. She is 'romantic'.
10. She always makes me feel like a 'princess'.
11. I never gave up on u.
12. I wishes her to stay with me.
13. She has an 'awesome' sense of humor.
14. She makes me laugh.
15. She holds the key to my heart.
16. I want to grow old with her.
17. She is an 'unbelievable' lover.
18. She is so affectionate.
19. She has reachable goals in life.
20. I will give her anything she ask.
21. Her eyes and his lips n not to mention her CUTE face.
22. She is my strength and my weakness.
23. i will forgive u over and over when u do something wrong.
24. How she makes me feel when I think I am 'flying'.
25. and U better SAY yes~~♥”
哎呀
我有那么优秀么？
我没有！
我并不优秀
我常常累人累己
很多人都讨厌我呀~
做么你会喜欢我的？
我只是一个平平凡凡的女孩
你去街上走走
找到的那些女孩
全部都会好过我的
我
不知道
我该怎样
我唯一知道的是
我不能接受你
很对不起
等吧
等到我大了
而你还喜欢我
或许
那时我会接受你了
现在
我真的不想参与这些事情
有时候
是挺烦的
谢谢你
这段日子
陪我度过
不过
现在的我们
还是做回好朋友呗~
我唯一能对你说的是：
“对不起”
亲情让我感到很温暖
我和哥哥在洗碗时哥哥突然对我说
“我好像喜欢某某人”
然后我就说
“谁啊？谁啊？”
然后他就说
“某某人啦”
过后我就说
“你不能跟她拍拖哦~”
然后哥哥就看着我
我说
“没办法啦，因为你们每一个都那么疼我，我要你们100%的爱，可是如果你们谈恋爱了，那你们就会不疼我了……”
哥哥就对着我笑一笑
哥哥
我知道
你们很疼我
我很任性
要你们百分百的爱护及照顾
没办法啦
因为在爱情上
我已经没有人爱护我了
所以
我要在亲情上得到爱
我答应你们
我会好好照顾自己
将我全部的爱都给我的家人
我已经不会再奢望什么了
尤其是在爱情上
也许是因为我痛过了
不想再被伤害过
被伤过的心还可以爱谁
6 August 2011
几天前 (4/8/2011)是大哥的农历生日
然后隔天 (5/8/2011)
就是爸爸的农历生日
我们家每年都会一起庆祝他们的生日的
结果今年爸爸闹别扭了
他说
“每年都跟大哥一起庆祝！真是不公平啊！”
我们都常说
“你看***啦（爸爸的朋友，还没结婚的），要跟孩子一起庆祝的机会都没有呢！”
然后我又说
“每年都自己买cupcake、自己庆祝、自己唱生日歌……很惨的咯~”
三哥又说
“我看他自己忙到都忘记庆祝了的咯~”
然后我们就大声的笑
家
谢谢你
让我感到很温暖
谢谢你
让我能从低落的心情快乐起来
星期四那天
我们去拿cake
那个cake是pandan delight
我去问了那位工作人员
“那个tiramisu能不能做成1.5kg？”
他说不能
那个重量已经定了
我们就走了咯
然后三哥在车上问
“那个tiramisu蛋糕是买给谁的啊？”
我就回他说
“那个是你的生日蛋糕啊~”
三哥的回应是
( ⊙ o ⊙ )啊！那个是我的生日蛋糕？！我要的是secret recipe的hazel cheese啊！
过后哥哥又说
“啊！命苦啊！命苦啊！人家生日我生日，人家生日有得自己选蛋糕，我的生日被人家选蛋糕还不要紧，还要我问你我才知道那个蛋糕是我的呢！”
然后我一直在那儿笑啊笑
笑到我整个人跌倒
还敲到头
(╯﹏╰)
哈哈哈
我们还说好
要晚上11.30才帮哥哥庆祝生日的
那样的话
庆祝的来都已经第二天
那就是爸爸的生日了啦~
哈哈哈哈哈哈
我们好聪明啊~
突然想起ah qan对我所说的话
“不要再割手啦，为你好才跟你讲的”
我突然傻去了……
对
就算全世界的人都遗弃我
我都不能遗弃自己
所以
我不再割手
我不再割任何的地方
我要保护我自己
就算以后在业没有人保护我了
我也会自保
我要学会独立
虽然
是很难
但我会加油~
:)
得到你的人却得不到你的心-欢子
如果我得到你的人
却得不到你的心
就算得到全世界也不开心
我想问一问你
能否爱我一次
遗憾我并不是你唯一
如果我失去这一切
能换来你的真心
就算失去全世界也不伤心
我以为人一起
心就会在一起
可怜我还一直为你钟情
很喜欢很喜欢这首歌
好像我的心声哩~
:D
假笑
我今天一直笑拼命的笑
不知道为什么哩
可能我不想让人知道我的心情
但是
当他们一直在讨论他们自己的东西时
我静静地坐在我的位子
拿着历史课本顶着
一边唱歌一边哭
哎呀
我就是这样~
:D
下课时
因为gurichha坐了我和darynn平时都坐的位子
所以我和darynn就只好坐到另一排那里去
这样巧陈家芊又坐在那里
算了
跟他一起坐
谁知道
我被她折磨
我看到有jelly
就问rebekah有什么口味
rebekah说有橙和桃子口味
我就告诉她我要橙的口味
陈家芊就说
“哦~橙哦~有人这么喜欢吃橙哦~”
我就马上转去桃子口味
过后我说
“其实桃子口味不差啊~”
陈家芊说
“哎呀，不喜欢就是不喜欢，不要勉强啦~”
(╯﹏╰)
我的天
能不能一天不提他？
她又说
“stephanie,明天有gardening啊~”
我回
“嗄~明天我有CF meeting哩~不用紧啦，我早点下来”
她又说
“哈？CL meeting?”
darynn和我一起说
“CF meeting!”
她又说
“哦~CS meeting哦~”
我的表情是
哈？
CS meeting?
然后她又说
“CS* meeting啊darynn”
我的天~
每天都提起他
烦不烦啊？
我拜托你们
能不能不要提起他？
真的很烦~
我都已经能活在一个没有他的世界了啦！
不要在我面前提起他好么？
我不要再听到他的名字！！！！
求求你们啦
帮我这个忙
不要提起他……
(╯﹏╰)
然后
不知道为什么
我悄悄的从hubby的铅笔盒拿回我的compass
然后我问hubby
要个多少条好呢？
然后他看着我
“啊！你几时拿回的？！”
我就笑笑
然后慢慢的割
想想下
还是不要割手
所以我去割脚
哈哈哈哈哈~
然后hubby看着我说
不要啦…不要割啦…不要这样变态啦你…
我
不想在你们面前哭哩
所以
我选了一条发泄的通道
或许你们会认为
我疯了~
但是我想告诉你们
我没事
我会控制自己
我不会割很深的
但是割不到几下
就让LOSHNI抢掉了！！
气死我了啦~
哎呀~
相信我
我没事的
割脚而已嘛……
hees:)
i think,
tat's all for today:)
被伤过的心还可以爱谁 ♥
被伤过的心还可以爱谁
没人心疼的滋味~
很好听的一首歌
我喜欢~
just love to be like this~
我就是这样在朋友面前
表现的非常坚强
但实际上
我很想抱着我的朋友大哭一场
为了不让你们担心
我还是没有这样
但是
今天老师弄不见我的练习本
我知道后马上就哭了
也许我知道
终于有个借口能让我哭了呗~
朋友~
我要在你面前
表现的非常坚强
我可以的~
加油！
:))
呼呼呼
终于
我终于可以活在一个没有你的世界了
你呢？
不管你能不能活在一个没有我的世界
我也不会回来找你了
所以
你要保重哦～
:))
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:))
今天
在学校
跟朋友们一起讲鬼故事
讲了很多很多
Camillia讲了很多恐怖的真是鬼故事
讲到Pearly & Vivian都怕到一直盖着耳朵“念经”
哈哈哈
看到他们的反应好好笑哦~
而我
还是笑了
朋友
谢谢你们
带给我这么多的甜美回忆
朋友
感谢你们
在我哭的时候
把你们的肩膀借给我
朋友
谢谢哦~
除了谢谢我都不懂要说些什么了……
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Name: Stephie / Stephanie
I don't remember when I created this blog,what I know it's been a long time ago. If I'm not mistaken, it's 2009 right? But this blog has been accompanied me whenever I'm SAD HAPPY LONELY FRUSTRATED
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